Revelation!

Today, I am in just one of those weird moods. It isn't bad, but just busy. Me and Jacob were running errands today and I came to the intersection of Pancheri and Yellowstone and had a revelation. Now, bear with me. There is no telling how long this will last or how long I will feel this way. And this post will probably be TMI, so if you don't want to read it, I won't be offended! I was thinking about how lately, I have just wanted to be back to the way I was before (how I used to be, not just my body, if that makes any sense.) I had Jacob. But then it kind of struck me...what if I wasn't meant to be? (now this is physical, mental, and spiritual) Everything around me lately is how much weight this and how much I've lost. Honestly, I've felt a little bad. I'm not much different from the day I had Jacob. Now, I haven't told many people that, so no laughing. But when I was sitting at that intersection waiting for the light to change, I thought to myself. Joe loves me how I am right now. Why can't I? He isn't constantly (or ever for that matter) telling me that I need to get to my pre-pregnancy weight, or that I need to change this about myself. He loves me how I am RIGHT NOW! Why do I need to go back to what I used to be just so that I feel good about myself? I DON'T!! Now, like I said before, there is no telling how long this will last. Hopefully, it's here for good. Of course, I won't quit trying to improve myself, but there's just going to be little bit for forgiveness and loving on the way!! If you made it to the end of that, congratulations!!